Midterms are coming up!
Yay.
My classes have been getting harder and harder. I haven't really had time to to anything. I haven't touched a fanfic. I haven't picked up my drawing tablet. I have been listening to the same four songs because I'm too busy to download more. It's insane. Luckily, spring break is next week, so I have some time to relax.
Of course, all of this stress is never good for a human being, much less a below average health person like myself. I walked all the way to the mall to cheer myself up after a shitty night. I promised myself that I would spend 40 dollars but ended up spending like 60. Ouch. But I got 3 shirts that I could wear with my binder without overheating, so that's good. And I got some brown eyeliner and purple lipstick. My favorite one is running out, and I have to replace it since the shade is discontinued.
All in all, me tired so me no posting soon.
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So… You can see that I haven't been posting… To be honest, I probably should've updated over the weekend. I had a lot of free time bc I only had 1 assignment to do compared to the 6 that I usually have. But I decided to take a break from everything.
Architecture is NOT for the week. Imagine staying up 'til midnight and being told that you had to start from scratch again. UGH!!! I am this close from having a good design, but I still have to work out like… 1 or 2 mor kinks.
As for the site, I really don't have anything to update or add. I am redoing the Marzopan page to make it look more like a wikipedia article, but that's mostly it. I need to make and draw ref sheets for Marzo. lol imagine having a self insert and having no actual art or lore of them??? couldn't be me.
Sigh... I don't know what to write about. I should be doing homework right now but I'm not. I'm already a month in and I'm already counting down the days for spring break. I've been noticing that my memory has been getting worse and now I'm starting to notice it in some of my classes. I have an assignment due on Friday and I don't remember what the professor wants us to do. And I can't get accommodations because I haven't been diagnosed with anything but my mom doesn't believe that mental health issues exist and UGH!!!
So yeah. Not fun. I have drawn a bit though. I finally figured out my line art style and I'm happy. Now I just need to work on my rendering and I'm all set.
Nothing to update in the site. Even if I did I wouldn't have time to do it.
Hi! Um.. remember when I said that I was going to update a whole lot? So.. uhh..
Winter break has got me feeling lazy as fuck. I have done nothing over break. I've finished Fallout New Vegas and immediately became obsessed with Project Zomboid, so I've had no time to draw. I've just been doom scrolling. I guess its a good thing. I really needed the time to just calm down and do nothing. But at the same time, I have the overwhelming urge to complete something. To do projects! Draw! Write! Code! I just wanna do something with my hands.
Christmas and New Years was fun. Because of what's been happening in America right now we didn't have people over, and my parents weren't able to get anything for me. But its alright. Took my actual first sip of alcohol for the first time too. Tasted like dogshit and I felt tired after.
I have classes in a few days, so I'm going to be taking the rest of the time to continue to chill before I go back into the hell that is architecture.
Nothing much for the site. I am going to try and start redesigning my Ratio shrine and updating the ideogame page, but other than that, nothing new.
Finally. I have time to do shit.
It's strange that one minute I'm having heart attack symptoms because I'm so stressed and then the next minute I'm in my room playing videogames all day. I finished all of my projects (they came out well btw) and all I have to do now is wait for my two final exams. No more stress. Yippee!!
I have been doing nothing but playing Fallout New Vegas and omg it has to be one of my top 10 fav games of all time. I cant stop playing it guys I really need to work on other things but the casinos... they call for me... too bad my mouse batteries died so I can't play until I go back home for winter break lol
Anyways, expect updates! Lots of them!
I'm so glad that I have autism. Or whatever mental illness/disorder I have that's numbing my senses. I have sooo much shit to do. I haven't drawn anything in days. I have 4 projects. They're all due in like 2-3 weeks. I have to register for classes. I signed up for 2 secret santas. I have to eat and take care of myself. ugh :( Stupid middle school thoughts are creeping up again, and all I have to distract myself with is my homework.
Over the weekend, I'll probably walk over downtown to a Mexican restaurant. I know they're gringo as hell, but I need something that reminds me of home.
Things have being going pretty smooth lately. No huge projects, no personal projects. Just chillin and playing roblox. I'm counting the days till Thanksgiving break so I can finally see my family and eat some actual food. I'm not the best cook, so I'm hoping my mom will teach me some recipes. Midterms are also over. All Bs and As :)
Nothing new on the site. I've been redoing things to make it all purple. It's my favorite color and I don't have it on my site??? Ridiculous. My poems have also been graded, so I'll start adding them soon.
Guess who got themselves into another hobbbyyy!!! I am now starting to journal! I have this blog, but I wanted a place to write about the day to day things without just making my sketchbook filled with school stuff and random thoughts. I have a small little notebook and have been using that as a commonplace/diary/reminder book. Its been going well actually. I write down the things I did so that my 80 year old memory doesn't forget. I'm resisting buying any cute journals since I have some back home, but I did buy another fountain pen.
Midterms are next week and I am spooked and scared. I have a presentation on Tuesday and 2 tests on Thursday and Friday. Its been a while since I had an actual test, so I'm trying to psyche myself up. At least one of them is open note.
I now remember why I hated writing in the first place. I have to turn something in for my writing class and I don't have anything. I feel a pressing weight in my chest whenever I try to write. I start writing, then I think of a scene that happens later. So I have to write that down so I won't forget, but then I forget what I was writing about in the first place. It's so mentally exhausting. I'll work on something later this day.
Also... I GOT EVERNIGHT ON HONKAI STAR RAIL YESSSS SHES SO FINEEEE although I haven't got a good kit for her bc I hate farming for shit.
Um... no site goals for a bit. I might redo my about me page, but I'm not sure rn. Bye!
Finally got caught up in all of my homework, which means I have time to code! I finished revamping some of my pages (sitemap and my homepage), alongside deleting a page that I felt was pretty much useless and didn't match the vibe I was going for in my site.
Making art has been... difficult lately. My perfectionism has been rising again, and I've been hating everything I draw. I have some decent drawings, but they're from a fandom that's a bit too mature to post online. So there they are, locked away. I was thinking of getting into one of those prompts a day for October, but I don't think my mind is up for them. Oh well.
I'm slowly getting into writing again! Back when I was little, writing was something I loved to do. Eventually, I stopped, but I have been picking it back up. Already posted one of my works on Tumblr :) I made a writing page and I'm hoping to add a poem or two soon. I've been so inspired by short horror stories. Did you know that Dahl (the famous children's author) made horror stories? I NEED his book.
Played HSR. Pulled for Evernight and got Blade instead >:( Bro like I wanted the evil lesbian not the gay emo loser.
Umm... ran out of stuff to say. Bye!
I've been so so busy. My classes have been eating me up. It's starting to become a bit stressful. If I'm not at home or in class, I'm working on projects. I've had no time to do anything ugh
My creating writing class has slowly gotten me into writing again. I've been considering adding a new page solely for my writing. But considering what little free time I have... bro I've even been DRAWING less.
I've began to read more fanfic to pass the time between classes. I'm not saying the fandom or the ship, but why is it all teacher x student??? I want 2 teachers kissing each other bro.
I have a bit more free time this week so I'll try to push out something new.
Oopsie daisy forgot I had a website. Anyways! Finally moved into my apartment! It's so fucking empty. My room lowkey looks like a jail cell. But it's only been the first few weeks or so, so I shouldn't really be expecting much.
Not much happening. Wrote fanfiction. Drew some drawings. All chill. School has barely begun and I KNOW that its going to eat me up. All of my classes are project based. Ouch.
Went to a fair over Labor Day weekend. Went on a few rides, including one that flipped me upside down. Horrifying. I'm glad I have shitty memory or otherwise I'd still be traumatized. That ride didn't even make me sick. It was some ride that swung side to side. Idk why that one did it for me. Got my hair cut. All good vibes.
Been reading House of Leaves :) It hasn't gotten crazy yet (I did read the mom's letters. I don't remember feeling that empty after reading something before.) but I am excited for it to begin.
No updates for the site for now. Too busy.
Bye!
